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During my martial arts teaching days.



A protector’s primary interest is in the safety and security of the person or persons they care about. Protectors have an extraordinary sense of loyalty and responsibility in their makeup, and seem fulfilled in the degree they can shield others from the dirt and dangers of the world. Speculating and experimenting do not intrigue Protectors, who prefer to make do with time-honored and time-tested procedures rather than change to new.

At work Protectors are seldom happy in situations where the rules are constantly changing, or where long-established ways of doing things are not respected. Protectors value tradition. They are not as outgoing and talkative as others, and their shyness is often misjudged as stiffness, even coldness, when in truth Protectors are warm-hearted and sympathetic, giving happily of themselves.

Their reserve ought really to be seen as an expression of their sincerity and seriousness of purpose. Protectors are willing to work long, hard hours quietly doing all the thankless jobs that others manage to avoid. Protectors are quite happy working alone. In positions of authority they may try to do everything themselves rather than direct others to get the job done. Thoroughness and frugality are also virtues for them. When Protectors undertake a task, they will complete it if humanly possible.


If you read through these memoirs, you will read about one specific recurrent dream that Twinklebear has had since her teenage years, about a man she has recognized as me, rescuing her from a kidnapper in an early century in Asia. The specifics of this recurrent dream, have been amazingly consistent over the years. Interestingly, one detail that Twinklebear has had in these dreams that she paid little attention to, was of an older woman who also helped to shield her from harm.

The most fascinating aspect of this detail in Twinklebear’s recurrent dream, is an epiphany Twinklbear had just last year, about this woman. Twinklebear realized that this woman was my mother. You can read about this realization in Memoir: Candy Connection. Like many significant latent memories in the Twin Flame world, Twinklebear’s memory of this was triggered by a photograph of my home in Queens, New York. When Twinklebear saw the photo, she recognized my house as the one in her dream, “Where an older Chinese woman pulled me inside,” as Twinklebear states it. In her recurrent dream, my mother pulled Twinklebear inside this house to hide her from the abductors who were chasing her.

Of great significance, this recurrent dream that Twinklebear has had since her teen years, abruptly stopped when she met me in 2015, as if she had been waiting for my arrival in her life—and when I did, it was a signal that I was her rescuer in her dreams—and her guardian and protector now. I can flatly say now, that I have been sent here to protect my Twinklebear. Sent by whom? It is a very mysterious question that speaks to the spiritual realm. But after all, what is the Twin Flame phenomenon but a spiritual matter?

Twin flames are two separate souls that was a single soul cleaved in half at the beginning of time by a Higher Power. This created two separate people, two souls known as “Twin Flames.” Who else could that Higher Entity be but God? I accept that. The purported purpose of this cleaving of one soul was to create two separate souls, who would be the perfect mate to the other.

If we can accept the validity of these premises, then certainly we can accept that a Twin Flame could be sent to Earth—purposed as it were—to serve a specific role in the life and lives of his or her Twin Flame. In my and Twinklebear’s case, that would be plural, because I have served as her protector in past lives as well as in this life. It is clear from the recurrent dreams, latent memories and retrocognitive visions and dreams, that I have been “sent here” to protect my Twinklebear. Lets not forget about the “coincidences” in our Twin Flame journey, that remind of this adage:

There are no coincidences in the Twin Flame world.

Here’s one of our “coincidences.” It has been well established that a great many men in Asia, are directly descended from Temujin (Genghis Khan). However, how many of those millions of men of Asian descent, have the nickname of “Genghis” as I have had since my early 20s (“Genghis” was a life long biker nickname bestowed upon me by another biker way back when, and “Sookybear” is a nickname Twinklebear gave me three years ago)? Not many. What does my nickname have to do with coincindences? Just this—Twinklebear has had a deep life long interest in Genghis Khan.

Twinklebear has had an inexplicable fascination with Genghis Khan from an early age, incongruous with her tender age when it took hold. Described in many of the earlier memoirs, is the humorous childhood scene of Twinklebear demanding books about Genghis Khan from her mum in book stores. I can picture her stamping her little bratty feet at the age of eight. Ha! So cute! I find it hilarious that she did this, when other eight year old girls wanted coloring books and a box of crayons. All of these “coincidences” in our Twin Flame journey, I see as “evidence.” Yes, evidence confirmatory of true Twin Flames and my role as her protector. She said to me this morning, “You are so kind and protective.” That comment alone, set the subject agenda for this memoir.

I do not underestimate the importance of my protector role in Twinklebear’s life as an integral part of our Twin Flame Dynamic. Twin Flame relationships for every Twin Flame couple, have their own “Twin Flame Dynamic,” and this protector relationship is to a large degree, ours. It is what makes us unique in that the precedence for it—as it has for other Twin Flames but perhaps in different ways for them—occurred decades, perhaps centuries or millennia ago in the past for Twinklebear and me.

The late 11th to early 12th century precedent for us that occurred in a place like Mongolia, that was encapsulated so accurately in Twinklebear’s life long recurrent dream about me—set the stage for future lifetimes for us, from that point onward. Add in all of the other coincidental pieces of evidence, and we have emerging a highly provocative picture of past, present and future.


I love you, Twinklebear
Forever and a day
Twin Flames, podmates always
Bear Pact Forever!
12 12 12 in every way

2 thoughts on ““PROTECTOR”

  1. I love this memoir my Sookybear, I love you. Thank you so much , for always being my PROTECTOR and GUARDIAN. I am so lucky,to have you. I wonder if it is some sort of constant Karmic force, where the people remain the same, only the time and places change? Maybe each time the “Kidnapper” is the same person, each time forcing their EVIL ways, through time,space, and so on ? Only the circumstances, and venues, are more seemingly comfortable, and unsuspecting. I love my Sookybear! Thank you! Podmates Twinflames 🐻 pact forever and a day 121212

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