MY TWINKLEBEAR: She’s at a birthday party now.

I miss my Twinklebear!

My Twin Flame love, “Twinklbear” Lesley Maclean, is at a friend’s birthday party that I was unable go to, with her.

Two years ago, I did not foresee this terrible missing of my Twin Flame—each and every second when we cannot be with each other. I didn’t know about this uncontrollable, empty void feeling, when I signed up to be her Twin Flame.

Signed up?

Ha! Wotta joke! The truth is, that both us were swept up by this Twin Flame Tidal Wave—like some helpless and miniscule flotsam and jetsam picked up by an gigantic, irrepressible tsunami.

We each were on the beach of life, minding our own business, living our respective lives….and then….


We were swept out to sea, intermingling with each other, turning over, upside down, and sideways, tumbling with incredible speed in close proximity to the other, ins this limitless wave of love, need and destiny.

Our lives were flipped upside down and switched around 180 degrees—in a fateful moment of us re-finding each other again—(we are a reincarnated Twin Flame couple who have lived past lives as husband and wife) in late 2015.

We could not resist if we wanted to, and believe me—I at least, tried to resist in the beginning, in my “running” phase.

Truth be told, when I tried to resist two years ago—three times—it was the most gut-wrenching emotional pain I’d ever felt. I was so successful in my “running,” that I only lasted overnight each time, before I came to the inescapable conclusion that I cannot ever be without my Twinklebear.

After each time, I begged Twinklebear for forgiveness.

Thank God she took me back! Awwww…

I cursed what I thought of as my “weakness” back then in my inability to resist, but now feel blessed because of it.

I learned that it was not weakness I was experiencing—but the undeniable destiny of true Twin Flames. The fear and denial Twinklebear and I felt in the beginning, was so classical!

It is easy to miss my Twinklebear so very much, because I think about her, all day long. This is something we noticed over two years ago—that we could not stop thinking about the other. That, hasn’t changed with the passage of time.

We still think about each other all day long, every day!

That has been a constant in our lives. I’ve never felt this hollowness whenever Twinklebear and I are not with each other. It is felt as a painful physical ache, in the stomach area.

The missing sensations were even worse, when we had our “running” phase early in our Twin Flame journey–when we were both scared witless by the intensity of love and need we felt for each other. The uncertainty about us as Twin Flames incurred so much insecurity, exacerbated by the intense need for each other!

We both knew with a certainty that we could not verbalize early on—that we were meant to stay together forever—simply because we could not explain it! It made no sense, because we both felt this mere weeks after we met.

So, picture this: Twinklebear and I, pining away for each other whenever we are apart, like some lovesick teenagers! The only thing wrong with this picture is, that this intense “infatuation phase” that usually burns out a month or two after meeting—has lasted two years and three months—and is here to stay!

I miss my Twinklebear! Even if we are apart for a mere few hours. I can’t help it. She is my beloved Twin Flame, my other half who completes me. I would miss her even if were apart for five minutes—and that is the truth.

I love you, Twinklbear
Forever and a day
Twin Flames, Podmates always
Bear Pact Forever!
12 12 12 in every way


2 thoughts on ““MEMOIR: MISSING”

  1. I missed you too! I wish you could be at the party, my Sookybear. As I would have loved you there. I love you! I missed you too. I defo agree, the time apart is filling a void, and life, in-between our ” Twinflame” existence. Thank you so much for this memoir my Sookybear. Twinflames podmates 🐻 pact forever and a day 12

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  2. My sweet Twinklebear, such a sunday for me, when I missed you so much, and was so lonely for you. Awwwww…I love you so much, Forever and a day, my love! Twin Flames, Podmates, Bear Pact Forever! 12 12 12


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