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TWINKLBEAR: My Soulmate, Eternal Wife, lover and muse.


“There is also a third kind of madness, which is possession by the Muses, enters into a delicate and virgin soul, and there inspiring frenzy, awakens lyric…..But he, who, not being inspired and having no touch of madness in his soul, comes to the door and thinks he will get into the temple by the help of art—he, I say, and his poetry are not admitted; the same man is not admitted at all when he enters into rivalry with the madman….”


Guilty as charged.

I am that madman.

The “madman” alluded to by Plato, is the artist or writer who is possessed by a muse, to the benefit of the prolificness of his art. The writer-muse relationship, as is my relationship with “Twinklebear” Lesley Maclean—can be intensely personal, romantic and sexual. It is not difficult to see where the writer’s inspiration springs from. It stems from the writer’s deep love of his muse. In my case, I am so crazy in love with my muse, that the appellation “madman” correctly applies.

Twinklebear, is my true Soulmate, Eternal Wife (for we both believe that we had been spouses and Soulmates in previous lives), sensuous lover and yes, muse.

It should be obvious to anyone with a half a reader’s mind, that my writing has taken a veering right turn from the Biker Subculture, into my Sookybear memoirs at times. This occasional turn into the realm of love, would not be possible, respectable or even imaginable, without one single element…..

The presence of Twinklebear in my life.

I so need her! My deep love, wanting, need for, and yes—obsession with Twinklebear, is the primary impetus and inspiration for my Sookybear writing. For the last year plus, she is but the one single thing on my mind 24/7, man—as I am for her. There isn’t one moment, seemingly awake or asleep (in my subconscious), that I don’t think about Twinklebear. It has been such an incredible journey for the past year, Twinklebear and I being inseparable Soulmates. How could this astonishing way of life with her, not inspire me, to write about it?

For the purpose of inspiring so much proliferation of this genre of writing of mine, Twinklebear is the perfect and Compleat Muse. All the elements are in place, for her being the ultimate inspiration for my creative impulses as a writer. Check it out.

We love each other totally. There is nothing about each other, we do not like and love. As Soulmates, our chemistry is extraordinarily complete. We can and do, talk for hours on end, the minutes seeming like mere minutes. Anything the other says, is interesting and engaging. We are truly, crazy in love with each other’s mind and Soul.

We are under a Soulmate Spell, that has, and will, withstand the test of time.

Our sexual attraction to each other, is amazingly heightened, as if we are divining sticks seeking each other. It is immediate, random and is a force of nature, all its own. Our sexuality seems completely natural, uninhibited, and ancient—a primal sensuality rooted in other incarnations of us in past ages, and times. We seek to join in the most primal and primitive sense of the act.

It has always been there.

We know each other, as only people who are innately familiar with each other beyond not only the time we’ve known each other in this lifetime, but also beyond the number of years either of us has spent on this world.

It is an ancient knowledge of each other.

Given that all of these parameters are present and accounted for, in my and Twinklebear’s case, is it any wonder that Twinklebear is my one and only, beloved muse? From time immemorial, artists and writers have had muses, with whom they had intense personal involvement. This artist-muse relationship, is the very foundation of the creativity of art, whether that art is represented in images or words. Twiinklebear, is my muse.

I love you Twinklebear
Forever and a day



2 thoughts on ““MEMOIR: MY MUSE”

  1. Awwww..thank you Twinklebear, my sweet Honeybear! It’s easy to wrote about you, because you are my muse, and I love you so deeply. It’s I love you so much, You are ,y one true Soulmate. Forever and a day. 12 🙂


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