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WHEN TWINNKLEBEAR SAW IT: Fuzzy image, clearer recollections.

SEPTEMBER 25, 2017

That was such an anxiety-filled time for Twinklebear and me. Twinklebear is my twin flame love, my reincarnated eternal wife, reincarnated from a previous life or lives. By (and I will write it the Brit way here) 25 September, 2017—we had endured several months of uncertainty with respect to ominous gynecological symptoms that she was having. But by the 25th of September of last year, we knew the truth:

She had cancer of the uterus, that required surgery.

That surgery, was scheduled for (and I shall write it the Yank way here!) September 25, 2017, with a wonderful and skilled surgeon who we found. Things were coming to a head.

Ironically, the anxiety noise coming to a crescendo, was a relief because we finally knew. It was a relief because knowing the truth, pointed to a solution, and that solution culminated in the life-saving surgery that Twinklebear had on September 25, 2017. Thank God!

Yesterday, while looking forward to next tuesday, which is the one year anniversary of Twinklebear’s surgery, we began reminiscing about the recurrent dream that Twinklebear had about me and us, multiple times a year since she was 14, until recently. Those dreams stopped entirely, when Twinklebear and I met (“reunited,” really) in late 2015. To refresh your memory regarding this recurrent dream, here it is in Twinklebear’s own words:


“I’ve had this recurring dream since I was about 14 years old. There were some years I had it more frequently, but I had it at least twice a year, every year. In the dream, a really ancient Chinese man–he must have been centuries old in my dream–took me, kidnapped me from you, and imprisoned me in an underground type of place, beneath a Chinese restaurant.

It wasn’t like a basement, but more like an “underworld,” if you know what I mean. This ancient man took me because he liked my light colored eyes—they were green in my dream. He imprisoned me in a glass casket in this underground, although I was alive.

The ancient man took me away from my lover, an Asian man who wore all black. I didn’t realize until I met you in 2015, that this man was you. His face was yours! In my dream, I now recognize his face, as having been yours. Anyway, this man who took me, was of a different tribe than you and me, if that makes sense.

In my dream, you wanted to get me back, to rescue me. You somehow got into this underground, and killed my captor, and then took me outside. The details of my dream were always the same, but I now recognize you, Sookybear, as my lover in my dreams! He always wore black in my dream, just like you always wear black–and his face in all my dreams, was your face!

You took me outside into the sunshine, and I looked all around, bewildered.

I said….’Where are we?’

You said….’Keep on running, we have to get away from here.’

It was cold where I was in captivity, but then we transitioned in my dream, into a warmer climate, like going from New York to Southern California, if you will. In my dreams, you look the same as you do now, in all black, but you were younger in my dreams. I think it is amazing that you were in all those dreams, all the dreams were the same dream. But the dreams stopped after I met you!”


During our reminiscing about the dream, we experienced several true “Oh my God!” twin flame moments, when Twinklebear had some latent memories surface about the recurrent dreams, that she had not remembered before. It seems that talking about spiritual events with deep introspection, sparks heretofore hidden memories. Introspection becomes “retrospection” in the process.

To begin with, Twinklebear recalled that for the last three or four years prior to our meeting in 2015 before the dreams ceased completely upon our meeting—the dreams evolved into “companion dreams”—that dovetailed with and were related to the original recurrent dreams.

When Twinklebear was conveying to me how the recurrent dreams were changing and morphing into some sort of “companion dreams” to the original dreams, she said to me….

“Oh my God! I just remembered a Chinese woman in these other dreams, and these dreams were somehow related to the other dreams where you save me! But the places are different…”

In these companion recurrent dreams I also save her from abductors, but under different circumstances. In the companion dreams, Twinklebear was fleeing from multiple abductors of eastern European origin. She describes them as “Russian looking.” While she was running away from them in the streets, a Chinese woman of about 60, came out of nowhere and pulled Twinklebear into the woman’s Chinese laundry, while saying, “Come in here with me, I will help you!”

Twinklebear realized the woman in the dreams was my mother, pictured here in NYC’s Central Park in 1938.

Twinklebear said to me….

“Oh my God, I just remembered something about the companion dreams! There was a Chinese woman who hid me from the males chasing me. She was abrasive and stern with me, even though she was trying to help me. You came in later in the dreams to save me. This woman, I just realized that she looks like your mum! I asked her, ‘Are you friend or foe?’ Then she pulled me off the street into this laundry!”

When Twinklebear described my mother’s demeanor, she was accurate to a “t.” My mother was at times, a difficult and brusque person, when she wasn’t being kindly.

It should be pointed out that my mother had a laundry, but Twinklebear knew nothing about the physical layout of my mother’s laundry, or the streets and landmarks surrounding it. I then showed Twinklebear the picture on the top of this memoir of my mother’s laundry. When Twinklebear saw the picture, she said….

“Wow, as soon as I saw the picture of your mum’s laundry, some memories came back…it made me feel all eerie, truly, really! I DO recognize it, even the long street in front of it! The shop has large glass windows in front and a glass door…. as if I was looking from the front of the laundry, I can see the side streets intersecting at the corners…and I see a garage….and I see a lot of grass…and I see a fast food place of some kind….I do feel that your mum was instrumental in us finding one other, my mum too!”

I was bowled over! She described details regarding my family’s house with the laundry at ground level (my parents owned the building, and our home was the 2nd floor flat while we rented out the 3rd floor flat) that she could not have known, for I never divulged these details to her.

She was right about the large grassy area, that was right next to our building when I was a kid. When I was a kid, this was an empty lot with grass, trees and other foliage. It was like a slice of the country next to my house. It was such wild patch of country, that I used to hunt for black widow spiders there. It later became a Carvel ice cream place, before becoming a KFC.

This latter was accurate in her seeing, “…a fast food place of some kind.” Twinklebear was actually seeing the same location in different eras (the foliage filled lot that later became fast food places), with visionary accuracy!

Twinklebear was describing the gas (petrol) station across the street with its garage and service bays when she mentioned the “garage.” Again, there was no way she could have known about that gas station garage across the street, because I never told her about it.

She was also accurate in seeing the streets at the corners of the block, that intersect the “long street” she visualized in front of our building. That “long street” is Northern Boulevard in Queens, New York—which stretches for 73 miles out to Long Island.

NORTHERN BOULEVARD: The “long street” she saw that stretches out 73 miles to Long Island.

Most astonishing was her description of the laundry in her dream….

“The Chinese woman who looked like your mum, pulled me inside this narrow and long laundry….there was a counter at the front, and she led me past that counter into the shop….there were a series of rooms leading to the back….with hanging clothes throughout the shop…”

Uncanny! My parents’ building was a narrow one, as you can see from the picture. The 2nd and 3rd floors consisted of “railroad apartments” (flats) which were a series of rooms arranged like a train, from front to back. Accordingly, the shop at ground level consisted of a series of rooms or “areas” leading to the back—exactly as Twinklebear described it!

This amazing conversation sparked a fresh detail about these “companion dreams” that Twinklebear had not recalled before….

“In these companion dreams that I had for three or four years before 2015, you also came to save me from the men chasing me, but much later in the dreams. You were also dressed differently than in the original recurrent dreams where you were wearing all black….in these later dreams, you also wore martial clothes, but they were black pants and a white top….and I knew it was you because of your martial arts in this life….”

When she told me that, I immediately knew what she was seeing. Twinklebear has only seen photos of me teaching or performing martial arts wearing an all black uniform, as I was wearing an all black uniform in the original, earlier recurrent dreams.

What she did not know, was that for a number of years while still teaching for my master in his school (before I opened up my own school, I wore black “gi” pants, and white karate “gi” top.

Let me explain. As long as I’m “gettiing into the weeds” of fine details in Twinklebear’s prescient dreams, I might as well go all the way.

In my master’s school, we taught two styles. One was Jow Ga Kung Fu, and the other was an Okinawan style of karate called Kuen do Ryu. The Jow Ga students wore black pants and a black logo’ed t-shirt. The Kuen Do Ryu students wore an all white karate gi.

Because I was proficient in both styles and taught both styles, my teacher allowed me to wear black pants with a white karate gi top, as an compromise and integration of both style’s uniforms—to distinguish me from the students, aside from the black belt I wore. I would have worn all black, except according to traditional etiquette, this is only worn by the master of a school.

All of these recovered latent memories, and visions in Twinklebear’s recurrent dreams might seem to be a series of astonishing coincidences. Except that they go well beyond mere coincidence, into the realms of prescient latent memories, predictive dreams and prophetic knowledge that Twinklebear could only have gained through spiritual means.

In talking extensively to Twinklebear about it yesterday, it does seem that there was some conflating of one recurrent dream with the other. The human mind is such a tricky mechanism. But discussion between twin flames helped clarify the differences between the two recurrent dreams.

On this veritable eve of Twinklebear’s surgery almost a year ago, all of these revelations draw the threads of certainty about us being twin flames closer, forming a more cohesive explanation of who we are. I thank God for this first anniversary coming up, and the amazing recollections about the recurrent dreams and their significance.


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Twinklebear’s dream was a letter from our past life, and a prediction of our reunion.


“Mongols say that a dream is a letter left on a pillow, a message from somewhere for someone, and they believe most important events were portended in dreams.”



You know this from previous memoirs. You know that Twinklebear has had the same recurrent dream since her teenage years at least twice a year without fail, about her abduction in an Asian land, many centuries ago. You know that in this dream, I was her rescuer from her abductor and her imprisonment. Furthermore, you know that this recurrent dream ceased completely, when she and I met in late 2015.

You may also remember from earlier memoirs, that Twinklebear has had a fixation and intense interest in the Mongolian conqueror of the 13th Century, Genghis Khan since Twinklebear was about the age of 7 or 8. So much so, that she pestered her mother about buying her biographies on Genghis Khan, when, other kids her age wanted comic books.

You do know from previous writing, that I have had the nickname of “Genghis” since an early age. What you may not know, is that I acquired this nickname, the very same year that Twinklebear was born. There are no coincidences in the twin flame world.

Twinklebear and I had this conversation this morning:


ME: “I fell hopelessly in love with you, on the very first day when I saw you in late 2015, and that feeling hasn’t changed a bit since that first day. My love for you, my need for you, was all there on that first day. Your flirty sensuality, that seemed only for me, it was overwhelming.”

TWINKLEBEAR: “I felt the same way, Sookybear. I saw you and I knew!”

ME: “The amazing thing is, you haven’t changed. The way you look at me now, the way you smile at me and flash your eyes at me, the flirty way you play with your hair, the way you tilt your head, all that is so classically feminine, that is hardwired into your genes. You are quite a woman. The way we are with each other now, is the same as that very first day in 2015.”

TWINKLEBEAR: “And you are quite a man, so handsome, you overwhelmed me too. My Sookybear, the very first time I saw you, I knew you! You already had this power over me! It’s funny, now that I know you better, you seem so different, yet the same as on that first day. I love you!”

ME: “I love you too! Yes, it is like magic. Like a magic spell you put on me. We definitely had a power over each other since day one—but in a good way, not in a ‘control’ kind of way.”


The pure love tsunami that Twinklebear and I feel toward each other, that seemed fully formed on that fateful day when we met in 2015, still amazes us. It amazes us because the fact that it was fully developed on the very first day—as if we’d known each other before—boggles the mind.

It is all too easy for us to attribute this phenomenon of us “being in love immediately” to us being twin flames, with all that implies with respect to our having past lives as husband and wife, but it is the only reasonable explanation.

But consider all the “coincidences” with respect to Twinklebear’s deep interest in Genghis Khan, my nickname of Genghis, and Twinklebear’s life-long recurrent dream about me, being her savior in a Mongolian-like setting centuries ago—and you can see how it all dovetails into a pattern.

There is no question in my mind, that Twinklebear’s recurrent dream was a “letter left her pillow” about our past, our present and our future.


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SAY IT FREQUENTLY: “I love you.”



ME: “Twinklebear, let me ask you something. How much time do you think elapses, between the times when we say ‘I love you!’ to each other? How often do you think we say ‘I love you!’ to each other?”

TWINKLEBEAR: “Oh….let me think…maybe no more than five minutes? I think we say that to each other at least every five minutes!”

ME: “I think your are right. It may even be every three minutes.”

(neither of us expresses any surprise at this)


Twinklebear and I have been twin flames for over two and half years now. This twin flame journey, continues to be a learning experience for us, because it is so out of the norm of what life is expected to be. The twin flame journey is so very unique, esoteric and mysterious because it is straddles two worlds—the everyday mortal world—and the eternal spiritual world.

We are all familiar with the mortal everyday world. It is the existence we all inhabit, where expectations of events and behavior are set and met, because said expectations fall into the “ordinary” spectrum of human experience. The norms of behavior are well established.

Contrarily, behavior that would be considered “extraordinary,” are lovers who say “I love you!” every three minutes.

Unless the lovers are lovesick teenagers in the first three weeks of their puppy love infatuation, that is. Twinklebear and I are not lovesick teens. Our behavior is encoded in a deeper template, a spiritual source of the soul, characteristic of the twin flame journey.

I would not call the twin flame journey an out of the body experience, for it does blend two worlds—the everyday world and the spiritual world. In the early stages of twin flame love, this “blender” of two worlds can be confusing and awesome simultaneously, for the twin flame partners.

Our early confusion and denial, in the face of our immediate, uncontrollable and persistent “illogical” crazy-in-love feelings and need for each other, are well-documented in earlier memoirs. Twinklebear and I have endured the early swirling and tumbling in the “twin flame blender,” to emerge stronger and more in love than ever.

In the everyday mortal end of the spectrum of human experience, there are very few surprises so unusual, that they amaze with unending wonder. Things are much different in the eternal spiritual world, which is irrevocably bonded with the everyday mortal world, within the twin flame journey.

For twin flames, esoteric and mysterious phenomena of emotions, events and behavior seem absolutely incredible to new twin flames, because these phenomena exceed the limits of “normal” everyday experience. However, in time, these unique phenomena become accepted and therefore, seem “ordinary” to the twin flame partners.

Take for example, the subject of my conversation with Twinklebear this morning. One might look at that conversation, and think the idea of two people saying “I love you!” to each other every three minutes is an exaggeration. At the very least, a non-twin flame might consider it absurd, if true. I know that I would have, three years ago.

But that was three years ago.

Three years ago was before I “re-found” Twinklebear(because Twinklebear and I are reincarnated spouses from another life or lives) almost three years ago. Before I found Twinks again, I had never felt a need to tell another woman that I loved her, every three minutes. The idea of it would have seemed ridiculous to me three years ago.

As you can tell from the tone of our conversation, Twinklebear and I consider saying “I love you!” every three minutes, absolutely mundane an act, and “normal” for us. This is an indicator or how deeply felt twin flames’ love for each other is.

The twin flame compulsion to say “I love you!” so easily and frequently, is appropriate and compulsory for twin flames. I will attempt to describe how I feel, when I feel compelled to say “I love you!” to Twinklebear so often. To my utter amazement and gratitude, Twinklebear feels the same way.

When I’m talking to Twinklebear and I look at her, I get drawn into her through her beautiful face. I have the feeling of an ancient history between us, of perhaps millennia. I know her, in the the most profound sense. This life is not our first go-around.

She is my eternal wife!

When I talk to Twinklebear, and gaze into her ageless eyes, so lovely and full of love and promise, what I feel is an endless, bottomless love for her. I feel a pink flush overcoming my head, shoulders and torso, and feel compelled to say….

“I love you!”

The place that this feeling springs from within me, is deep, rich and unquenchable. It is somewhere rooted in my very soul, reaching out to somewhere deep and rich in Twinklebear’s soul, when I say….

“I love you!”

Or when she says that to me. We always reciprocate by saying, “I love you too!” This expression of a profound deep love, voiced every three minutes, is overwhelming to feel, and joyous to experience. Neither of us has ever known anything like it.


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FOREVER AND A DAY: How long I will love my Twinklebear



Twin flames are said to be each one half of a soul, split into two. Conversely, a soul mate is a separate soul with which you have great attachment or connection over many lifetimes. Twin flames however, supposedly share an even greater connection; being two parts of the same entity. Twin flames are in fact, two incarnations of a soul occurring at one time.

In the case of twin flames, they feel an irresistible urge to share companionship and love within a lifetime and beyond.

Previous relationships with soul mates may not feel as deep and connected as with a twin flame. A soul mate can feel like the absolute match for you but a twin flame you really feel ‘one’ with. There is a reason for that; you are ‘one’.

You are born with certain personality biases because of other incarnations, but you develop all over again because of the stimulus you receive during this new lifetime. You develop, for the most part, a new personality each lifetime; with new preferences, biases, beliefs, wants, needs, aspirations and so on, due to the unique stimulus you are receiving.

Your higher self is far more intelligent than you are now, with a multidimensional mind, able to process the learning and experience of many lifetimes all at once, be all of those personalities simultaneously and experience them once more when ever it chooses in an instant. The higher self is the sum of all of your lifetimes, personalities and more, in it’s great wisdom and intelligence.

Twin flames are simply two incarnations of your soul occurring at one time.

Traditionally, twin flames are seen as being male and female lovers with a very special, irresistible, magnetic connection. Given that there are infinite possibilities for learning and experience within creation, the higher self can be creative with its incarnations.

There have been many instances of past life regression or mediumistic contact which have suggested how a twin flame of a person has been a partner in a previous life.

So the difference between soul mates and twin flames is that a soul mate in not manifested by your higher self, not part of your overriding higher consciousness, not another incarnation of yourself.

Twin flames, and indeed soul mates, may meet under synchronous conditions. It’s likely that before birth, you incorporated your meeting into your life plan, hence it seems that you met on purpose. This could well be the case, and the circumstances can seem like an incredible coincidence. This can provide confirmation that you were destined to meet.

Twin flames, both being incarnations of the same soul have a lot in common.

You might meet someone in your dreams, feel like you know them very well, and share love with them – this could be a twin flame entity visiting you in your dream to wish you well.


This last point is significant, because my twin flame Twinklebear, has had a recurrent dream about me since the age of 14. You can read about this in “MEMOIR: HE WAS ASIAN AND WORE ALL BLACK” Twinklebear generally had this same exact dream in which I visited her, at least twice a year until she stopped having this dream in late 2015. Can you guess why she stopped having this dream in late 2015?

Because it was in late 2015 when Twinklbear and I met.

At least in this lifetime. What that excerpt said with respect to our “higher selves” being more intelligent than we are, is absolutely true. That accounts for why Twinklebear’s and my higher self, instantly recognized the other from previous incarnations.

“Twin flames are simply two incarnations of your soul occurring at one same time”

And I’ve gotta tell ya, it definitely feels like she and I are of the same soul that have incarnated, within this lifetime. Also rampant with Twinklebear—because she is the more spiritually sensitive partner, are dreams, visions and latent memories of us in previous lives. For my part, I have latent memories of us.

“Your higher self is far more intelligent than you are….able to process the learning and experience of many lifetimes….”

How very true this was of Twinklebear and me. For her part, her “higher self”was able to recognize me instantly as her twin flame. As Twinklebear puts it in retrospect….

“As soon as I saw you Sookybear, I just sort of knew. I knew that we were meant to be together. I didn’t know why I knew this. I just did”

My reaction was the same, but more nuanced. There was a part of me, way deep down into the core of my heart and soul, that knew that Twinklebear was magnetic to me beyond belief. I knew that I was a dead duck.

I knew instinctively, that I was about to fall down into the rabbit hole of extreme ecstasy, limitless joy and one hell of a roller coaster of male-female love, that only a Hollywood script writer could accurately conjure up.. My subconscious probably silently proclaimed….

God help us!

Ha! We were in deep doo doo! Right up to her pretty neck, and my rough neck, baby! Ah, the deep ddo doo of twin flame love—there ain’t nuthin’ like it it!

Yes, God help me because I love Twinklebear so much—too much!

It is a true fact that I think about her all day, and that has been true since we met in late 2015.

But, as with anything in life, nothing is perfect, including what should be perfect. Namely, twin flame relationships. That is the problem with twin flame relationships that are suddenly, and clumsily dropped down on people ensconced in the “real world.”

Logistics, life before rediscovery of each other, the overrun of emotions that occurs from a misfit of fated (and ideal) twin flame dynamics and preexisting conditions, it would be silly to understate these negative influences.

In every life, in every “real world life” that is (as opposed to twin flame life), there are blips on the Serenity Graph.

That is inevitable. My individual life, and Twinkle’s, are no exception. Look at the health upheavals we both have suffered. There are lesser upheavals, less important, yet no less disturbing when they happen.

This results in overflows of emotion, that are understandable, but upsetting at the time. Hey man, this is just part of the process. The twin flame process of withstanding stormy weather in the twin flame realm.

But I can state unequivocally, that I love my Twinklebear unconditionally, and I will love her totally, without reservation, second to none—forever and a day.

Twinklebear and I always end our good nights with, “I love you forever and a day.” This is no mere Hallmark card sentiment, but a sentiment meant in all earnestness and truth in advertising. I will love Twinklebear, “forever and a day.” Nothing about that will ever change.


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My twin flame love with Twinklebear fits “ethereal’s” most lovely descriptions.




a: of or relating to regions beyond the earth
b: celestial, heavenly
c: unwordly, spiritual
d: marked by unusual refinement


I’ll be honest with ya. I was planning to hypothesize in this memoir, about how the Fractal-Holographic Universe’s distortion of the space-time continuum to create alternate realities, makes possible timeless, eternal twin flame relationships, in clear scientific terms. You with me so far?

This would make it possible for ageless, twin flames to exist in one or many wormholes and mysterious black holes in alternate existences and simultaneous lifetimes, in eternal bliss and endless propagation. You got that? Are your eyes crossing yet? Is your mind contorted like a pliable pretzel yet?

These theories might dovetail with latent memories, visions and dreams of past lives together, for reincarnated twin flames like Twinklebear and me. But, I am not going to do that. I’m not going to delve into this mind-bending morass of egghead complexities. Why not?

Because I can see your eyes starting to glaze over, and its not from tears of deep appreciation.

Talk of black holes and wormholes, while found endlessly fascinating by those with IQs above 200 (of which I am definitely not a part of), I doubt that people with a genuine interest in genuine twin flame love like Twinklebear and I have—which is largely spiritual—would suffer such a didactic lecture gladly.

“Hello, shoot me now.”

Huh? Fuggeddabowdit!

Instead, I would simply describe my twin flame love with my twin, Twinklebear, as ethereal.

It is spiritual, yet real. It is as palpable as the weight of a whole planet, yet as celestial and heavenly as an angel’s golden feather. It is as light and happy as the most perfect moment you can remember from your entire life, yet can crush any opposition to it, like a full-assault war effort by the forces of love and eternity.

Twinklebear and I, can never be without each other.

I can’t state it any simpler than that. There is nothing ambiguous about the meaning of this.

Twinklebear and I have a twin flame relationship, that is as profound, surreal and mind-blowing, as any Fractal-Holographic Universe can be. Consider this. If both of us can be honest, we can in retrospect recognize that just after we met in Late 2015, there was the subtle Voice of Twin Flame Truth that whispered to our subconscious….


“This is the Voice of Twin Flame Truth.

Because I am speaking to you from a higher spiritual plane, your inner souls, inner hearts and subconscious will recognize the truth of what I am saying.

Your mortal conscious will lag behind in this recognition, simply because it will not make sense in every day terms. You are each other’s twin flame. You may not even know what twin flames are.

From this time on, you will feel inexplicably and totally inseparable from each other.

You will feel this, but won’t be able to explain it to yourselves or others. That knowledge will come in time.

Your sheer need for each other, every day from here on in, will speak as eloquently to your twin flame status, as any well-worded thesis. This need will baffle and delight, excite and at times, frustrate you.

You will feel a commitment to each other, that is impervious to the shifting of the sands of time. A commitment and connection that is celestial, heavenly in nature, that is a bond that is the strongest in the Universe. You are now forever linked.

Your mere mortal conscious will fight this. Yet in time, you will yield to the simple truth that you two will be inseparable until the end of time and beyond. You may sense having these thoughts before, in lands and lifetimes far, far away.

Your love for each other, will be like no other that you have felt before, so intense it will be, except perhaps you have felt this for each other in different lives. You will be together, forever, beyond this lifetime.”


And so we have been inseparable, since late 2015 when the Voice of Twin Flame Truth whispered this simple truth to us. This simple phenomenon of have been inseparable since Day One, was born fully formed and complete, on that Day One.

Amazingly, nothing has changed with respect to this. This need for each other, has neither decreased or increased from that first day on. It is just there like an indestructible monolith, unchanging and comforting in its consistency.

We were irrevocably and totally inseparable on that “Day One,” and for every day since and every day in the future, this will be a constant. We being inseparable is immutable.

Twin flame theorists can quibble about whether the twin flame relationship is a function of time travel within wormholes, challenging the precepts of reincarnation. Scientific minds can wonder about whether black holes contain alternate universes, in which we twin flames live different existences, than the ones we know? I don’t know.

I only know that what Twinklebear and I have is immutable and eternal. In one word it is ethereal. Celestial, heavenly and simply….us.

Allow me to put this in Hallmark card terms that everyone can understand. I am crazy-mad-in-love, head-over-heels-in-love with Twinklebear—and that will never change.



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It is a well documented fact, that twin flames have an innate knowledge of their partners, with no rational way to explain it. This knowledge only partially comes from intelligent thought and analysis.

It just is.

While smart people can discern certain facts by deductive reasoning, the absolute feeling (that may be described as “knowledge” in this case) that a twin flame possesses about his or her partner, is attributable to the strong spiritual connection that twin flames have.

However, there are highly spiritual people who have great premonitory powers, irrespective of whether or not they are one half of a twin flame relationship. My beautiful twin flame love, “Twinklebear” is one of these.

Twinklebear has a long history dating to childhood, of being able to have visions or predictive dreams, of events that are yet to happen. Let me give you an example of her premonitory prowess. This example does illustrate, how indirect or “symbolic” premonitory visions or dreams can be.

There was a woman Twinklebear attended church with, whose teenage daughter Twinklebear had a vision about. In her vision, she saw the woman’s daughter in a white car, waving goodbye. Twinklebear related this vision to the woman. Two weeks later, the girl and three teen boys were killed in a car crash. The car they were killed in, was white.

In our case, Twinklebear has the more than the usual predictive feelings with respect to me, because we are twin flames. Due to our close twin flame connection, she does know things about me before I know them. I believe this is a function of her innate predictive talent, augmented by our twin flame relationship.

I am just home from having a hip replacement surgery. The need for this surgery was precipitated by a fracture I had in the hip, unknown to me. It was unknown to me, until the pain one day a week and half ago, rose to intolerable levels. I thought it might have been a severe groin muscle pull.

The hip fracture was confirmed in the hospital emergency room I was taken to. After x-rays were done, a nurse said to me, “It’s a good thing you came in.”

Now, I have had pain in this hip since the 1990s, when it was known that I had arthritis in it. The pain has been mild until that day a week and half ago, when it escalated to a level 10. How bad was it? I could not walk. This is the reason I needed a hip replacement.

Sometime ago, perhaps a few months ago, Twinklebear thought that the pain I had was more than mere arthritis. She said….

“Sookybear, I feel that the pain you have may be a hairline fracture in your hip.”

I really didn’t think there was much merit to her contention that it might be a fracture, instead of the arthritis. After all, I’ve had pain in this hip for years. Guess what?

She was right!

Once again, she was able to predict events in my life to happen, before they have. There are other examples of her being able to intuit things that have happened to me, like my sudden retirement. Twinklebear is amazing!


I love you Twinklebear Lesley Maclean
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In 1776, whether you were declaring America independent from the crown or swearing your loyalty to King George III, your pronunciation would have been much the same. At that time, American and British accents hadn’t yet diverged. What’s surprising, though, is that Hollywood costume dramas get it all wrong: The Patriots and the Redcoats spoke with accents that were much closer to the contemporary American accent—than to the Queen’s English.

It is the standard British accent that has drastically changed in the past two centuries, while the typical American accent has changed only subtly.

Traditional English, whether spoken in the British Isles or the American colonies, was largely “rhotic.” Rhotic speakers pronounce the “R” sound in such words as “hard” and “winter,” while non-rhotic speakers do not. Today, however, non-rhotic speech is common throughout most of Britain. For example, most modern Brits would tell you it’s been a “hahd wintuh.”

It was around the time of the American Revolution that non-rhotic speech came into use among the upper class in southern England, in and around London. According to John Algeo in “The Cambridge History of the English Language” (Cambridge University Press, 2001), this shift occurred because people of low birth rank who had become wealthy during the Industrial Revolution were seeking ways to distinguish themselves from other commoners; they cultivated the prestigious non-rhotic pronunciation in order to demonstrate their new upper-class status.

“London pronunciation became the prerogative of a new breed of specialists — orthoepists and teachers of elocution. The orthoepists decided upon correct pronunciations, compiled pronouncing dictionaries and, in private and expensive tutoring sessions, drilled enterprising citizens in fashionable articulation,” Algeo wrote.

The lofty manner of speech developed by these specialists gradually became standardized — it is officially called “Received Pronunciation” — and it spread across Britain. However, people in the north of England, Scotland and Ireland have largely maintained their traditional rhotic accents.

Most American accents have also remained rhotic, with some exceptions: New York and Boston accents have become non-rhotic. According to Algeo, after the Revolutionary War, these cities were “under the strongest influence by the British elite.”


I am American and my beloved twin flame “Twinklebear” is English. One of our standard jokes is when I say to her….

“Twinklebear, I have to teach you how to speak proper Queen’s English!”

Ha! It turns out, I was right! Who knew? As you saw from the Live Science excerpt, it has been the British accent that has changed—while the American accent has not. I’m feeling like such a distinguished English Lord! My God! Knight me now! Hey, that’s “Sir Sookybear” to you, suckah!

I guess I should be grateful that we New York colonists arrived in NYC in 1664, before our English cousins in London and Hastings, decided to make wholesale changes to the way English sounds! So funny! Ha! Right now, Twinklebear is winding up her Donking Rolling Pin, to give me a hahd donk to my head!


Speaking seriously though, Twinklebear and I find it endlessly fascinating how different our accents are. This is constant source of kidding and teasing the other, although we each find the other’s accent and idioms exotic and interesting. An example of this, is how we pronounce “news.” She will say to me….

“its funny the fast way you say it, like a New Yawk gangstuh….’Nooz‘…you say it with real attitude.”

And I will point out the charming way that she draws out the syllable….


This interchange is usually followed, by us comically trying to imitate the other’s accent. Our conversations are so interesting and fun! So funny!

One of the most fun things about our exhilirating brand of humor, is the constant ribbing and teasing we do to the other. Generally speaking, we are both huge devotees of the Sarcastic School of Humor! We find it intellectually stimulating, as teasing the other takes real thought. Ha! It is so sharp sometimes, that it borders on the fringes of insult humor. We love it!

Hey Twinklebear—rhotic this—okay? Ha!


Owwww! Hey Twinklebear, put that rolling pin down!


I love you Twinklebear Lesley Maclean
Forever and a day
Twin Flames, Podmates always
Bear Pact Forever
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