“MEMOIR: PALE EXCUSE”

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CONVERSATION I HAD WITH TWINKLEBEAR TODAY

ME: “Twinklebear, I’m thinking of having beer tonight.”

TWINKLEBEAR: “YOU! NO! THAT’S TOO MUCH! BAD BOY!”

“DONK”

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Twinklebear is my Twin Flame, which means that we are a reincarnated couple who had past lives together. “Twin Flames” are similar to “soulmates” except that Twin Flames belong to an exclusive club of souls, who have only one Twin Flame partner, compared to ordinary “soulmates” of which one can have many.

References to “Twin Flames” in the Bible show that there exist only 72,000 Twin Flame couples. That’s not many, considering the world’s population of eight billion people. Each Twin Flame couple once consisted of a single soul, who were split into two by God at the beginning of time. These “Twin Souls” were destined to search for their one and only partner with the goal of “reunification” in the same lifetime. Hence, every Twin Soul had a “perfect match” out there somewhere. The trick, was to find him or her.

As you can imagine, many Twin Souls never meet up with their Twin Flames within the same lifetime. Think of all of the challenges that in real life, could obstruct reunification. The Twins may not be reborn into the same lifetime. They could be reincarnated into different centuries. If they are reborn into the same lifetime, they may be at opposite ends of the Earth, completely unaware of the other’s existence. You get the idea.

Twinklebear and I were lucky enough (at least this time around) to have been born into the same lifetime. Moreover, it was destiny that we met in 2015, and even luckier that we speak the same language. I am American and Twinklebear is British. Twinklebear is lucky that I am willing to teach her, how to speak English the proper way! Ha!

What is truly unfortunate, is that when Twinkelbear reincarnated, she brought her famed “Donking Mallet” as well as her deadly “Donking Rolling Pin” with her—her instruments of choice when it comes to “DONKING” me on the head for being in her eyes—a Bad Boy!



WOE IS ME: Twinklebear’s deadly “Donking Rolling Pin!”

Heh…Twinklebear, my love…now, please put that rolling pin down, okay? Awwww..I love you! It’s a good thing I have health insurance. Ha!

I love my sweet Twinklebear! She is sexy, beautiful, sweet and brilliant. But—as Twinklebear’s Mum used to say to her when Twinklebear was an adorable but bratty little kid….

“You are enough to drive me to drink!”

I’m only kidding. She does not drive me to drink. Twinklebear does know though, that my saying, “I’ll have beer tonight” is really code for, “I’ll be writing a memoir tonight.”

Here I am, indeed writing a memoir and having popped the cap off if a Sierra Nevada Pale Ale. I guess I’m pretty transparent to Twinklebear, but that’s no surprise. She knows me better than anyone in the world, because we are Twins. Twin Souls have an inherent psychic link, a Twin Flame umbilical cord that stays spiritually connected, in spite of being separated at the dawn of time. That brings up an interesting question. It is a question that has historically, been applied to artists as, well. That question is, why do writers drink?

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FROM PSYCHOLOGY TODAY

Alcohol has been a defining feature of literary life in this country, with some research showing a clear link to writing and drinking that may be neurologically based. In her 2014 The Trip to Echo Spring, Olivia Laing examined the role that alcohol played in the lives of six American writers….finding deep, psychological connections between their respective addictions and creative genius. Some twelve writers were even under the influence while they worked.

What led so many writers to drink? It was “the drive for success of every kind,” Kazin proposed, in conjunction with “the burden put upon the creative self.” One psychiatrist actually did a study to try to figure out why so many great American writers drank. Donald W. Goodwin of Washington University argued that there could be a genetic link between writing ability and alcohol.

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Sounds complicated, doesn’t it? But in my case, it really is simpler than all of that. I find that having pale ale while writing these memoirs, relaxes me so that these thoughts serious and funny, bittersweet and joyous—but always loving—come to me about my Twin Flame Twinklebear.

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Forever and a day
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“MEMOIR: WATER NYMPH”

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MY TWIN FLAME TWINKLEBEAR: She’s a “Naiad”—a water nymph.

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FROM MYTHOLOGY.NET

Imagine coming across a bubbling spring in the wilderness of ancient Greece. If the merry tinkle of the water, the soft bed of moss on the spring’s bank, and the fragrant water flowers that dip over the water to gaze at their reflections are not enchanting enough for you, imagine a graceful woman with snow-white limbs and long, silky hair peeping out of the lilies. She is a Naiad (water nymph), and her divine spirit has given this spring its spellbinding beauty.

Naiads are ravishingly beautiful women, with long graceful limbs and flowing hair. Their beauty is all the more devastating because they like to roam around without clothing, and many men—gods and mortals alike—have fallen under the enchantment of the “unshod” Naiad.

Naiads exist on the cusp of immortality. So long as their home waters run strong, they remain young, beautiful, joyful, and vigorous. However, if their waters run low, their strength slips away from them.

Just as Naiads draw strength from their watery homes, the waters where a Naiad lives are said to absorb some of her magical qualities. Water from a Naiad’s home can heal the sick, inspire poets and prophets,

If a Naiad is provoked, her anger is reflected in her waters. She can make water simmer with the heat of her fury, and she can unleash flash-floods or droughts upon her enemies. She can also change the quality of her water, making it yellow and wretched with sulfur, or white and sweet, like milk.

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TWINKLEBEAR SPEAKING TO ME TODAY

“My Sookybear, I have always had an affinity with water. I can remember when young and my Mum asked me to clean the kitchen, I’d leave pools of water around. My Mum would say to me, ‘Lord, look at all the water all over!’ I’d reply, ‘Mum you can’t have it both ways. You wanted me to clean but I can’t do it without water’….”

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Let me just say that I have seen firsthand, Twinklebear “make water simmer with her fury” when angry. “SHUDDER!” Simmer? Ha! More like “boil!”

My Twin Flame Twinklebear, is a Naiad—a water nymph of mythological fame. She and the element of water, are like hand in glove. As a matter of fact, she and I are hand in glove as well, because fortuitously I am an Aquarius—having been born on January 22nd—a water bearer. Talk about symbiotic relationships!



TWINKLEBEAR IS A WATER NYMPH: And I am a water bearer, bearing her water in the form of love and support.

The symbiosis of our relationship of water bearer and water nymph might be largely symbolic, but it is a symbol of the very real love and support we unconditionally give to each other, especially in times of strife.

An example of strife was Twinklebear’s fight with a serious health problem that occurred in September of last year, a health problem which thankfully has resolved wonderfully. My priority during her recovery was a total and unconditional love and support while she got well again. She was a water nymph and I provided her water, symbolically.

Another outcome of Twinklebear’s ordeal since her surgery, was the discovery of swimming as a therapeutic modality of choice. She is a true “Naiad”–a water nymph! I really admire her dedication to swimming. For the past few months, she has swam twice a week like clockwork!

I had my own strife this year, after I had pretty serious surgery in August, surgery that I am currently recovering from. Twinkelbear in this case, had totally supported and loved me. It is funny, but her advice regarding my recuperation, are to the point and blunt….

“My Sookybear, one word: ‘hydrotherapy!’ Now mind you, I am not nagging you, I am ‘concerned.’ You know how great swimming has been for my recovery, now I want you to do it too, you bad boy! ‘DONK’….”

Ha! And she thought I was “blunt” as an American stereotype when we met in late 2015! With me, she is as stubbornly blunt as can be! That last sound was the sound of my Baby “DONKING” me with her legendary “Donking Mallet.” So funny!



MY MISTAKE: “Owwww! Jeez that hurt! Twinklebear—YOU!”

Oh my God, I love our sense of humor so much. It sustains me. But speaking seriously, Twinklebear and I do have this symbiotic relationship, that is so caring and reciprocal, that we could switch roles of the “water nymph” and the “water bearer,” and it would not matter. The end result would be the same. An unconditional love and support of the other.

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Forever and a day
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“MEMOIR: EPIPHANY ONE STEP AT A TIME”

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SLOW GOING: Let me think.

When I first met Twinklebear (reunited really, because we are reincarnated Twin Flames who had past lives as a couple) three years ago, she did not know what to make of me. As an American, and Twinklebear as a Brit, my outspoken ways were a bit of a culture shock to her. She said to me….

“You are so blunt!”

Other adjectives that occurred to her, were arrogant, aggressive, brash and overbearing. “Hey,” I told her, “I merely speak my mind and tell it like it is!” For a New Yorker, this trait more accurately reflects honesty, rather than an attitude. Given that I fully acknowledge my “honesty,” let me just say that I think I’m extremely smart guy.

For such a smart guy, I’m pretty goddamned dumb!

Hey, I’m not known for my humility, but in the matter of the Twin Flames journey, I must admit to being slow witted at times. It seems that the layers of preconception and habit of behavior baked into my personality, make learning more difficult, when it comes to my Twin Flame relationship with my Twin Soul Twinklebear. That’s why epiphanies come in dribs and drabs in our Twin Soul journey. Such a teachable moment happened for me with my last piece, “Memoir: The Human Element.”

In that piece I discussed the challenges that Twinklebear and I face as a long distance couple. As part of the discussion, I quoted an article in which an experienced long distance couple offered this valuable advice:

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“Be ready to work twice as hard as you did before. One thing we’ve learned? You need to work toward having a very strong, solid base to your relationship when you’re long distance. Be open, honest. Take the time to figure out how and when is best to communicate with each other. Work at making each other feel special, even without seeing each other. All the things you work on during a normal relationship will need extra effort for in a long distance relationship.

Call and text each other throughout the day. My wife and I have had to do the long distance thing twice in our relationship. We learned that you have to call and text each other during the day and share what’s going on. In other words, don’t wait to do it all in a phone call at the end of the day when you are tired. Make your partner part of your daily life.”

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For a good day, I pondered this advice, especially the last part of it: “Make your partner part of your daily life.” I thought to myself, “Could it be? Have I neglected to make my sweet Twinklebear a part of my daily life in New York, while she is in England?” I had to admit that it was true.

In my defense, let me explain some mitigating circumstances. For the past few months, I have been in the process of a lengthy recovery from a surgery. During this recovery, I have been more or less house bound. Also during this recovery, whenever Twinklebear would ask how how I was doing and what I was doing, my stock response would be, “Not much. I’m doing okay.”

Hey man, could I have been any more tight lipped? I have generally found this recovery from surgery particularly frustrating. In these circumstances, my natural instinct is to be stoic, to not complain and place any undue burden on my sweet Twinklebear. While well intentioned, my taciturn responses did not give Twinkelbear what she deserved—the feeling that I was sufficiently sharing.

After this epiphany I changed my tune, and it is well received by my Twinklebear. I now tell her exactly what I’m doing during my day, no matter how mundane it might seem. What’s not important is the information about what I’m doing, but the feeling that it imparts to Twinklebear that I have included her in my daily life. The importance of this cannot be underestimated.

In my discussion with Twinklebear about my epiphany, I remarked on how these memoirs are food for thought, and how they spark epiphany through introspection. The process of writing these memoirs, and thinking deeply about what was written, does bring revelations to me.

Additionally, ruminating aboout certain pertinent points in these memoirs, does make me appreciate how very much I love my Twinklebear, which is so very much, too much! Ha! Included in the mundane information I now give to my beloved Twinklebear, which she loves (she said, “I love your newfound energy!”) about my daily life, I slip this gem….

“Hey my love, I’m sitting here thinking dirty thoughts about you, you sexy thing. *WINK*”

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Forever and a day
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“MEMOIR: THE HUMAN ELEMENT”

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With all the spiritual talk of the Twin Flame journey being a relationship of pure Souls, it is all too easy to forget that Twin Souls are human, replete with all of the weaknesses and foibles that mere mortal couples possess. Twin Flames face the same challenges that non-Twin Flame couples do, especially long distance Twin Flame couples.

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FROM HUFFPOST.COM

Apparently, absence really does make the heart grow fonder. According to a 2013 study published in the Journal of Communication, people in long-distance relationships were more likely to share meaningful thoughts and feelings with their partners than those who were not. Apparently, couples in long-distance relationships tend to idealize their partners’ behaviors, which leads to a greater sense of intimacy.

That’s all well and good, but being apart is definitely trying at times, even for couples with a relatively strong foundation. How do you get through it? Below, people familiar with the long-distance relationship struggle share their tried and true advice.

“Be ready to work twice as hard as you did before. One thing we’ve learned? You need to work toward having a very strong, solid base to your relationship when you’re long distance. Be open, honest. Take the time to figure out how and when is best to communicate with each other. Work at making each other feel special, even without seeing each other. All the things you work on during a normal relationship will need extra effort for in a long distance relationship.

Call and text each other throughout the day. My wife and I have had to do the long distance thing twice in our relationship. We learned that you have to call and text each other during the day and share what’s going on. In other words, don’t wait to do it all in a phone call at the end of the day when you are tired. Make your partner part of your daily life.

Don’t forget to schedule regular Skype dates. It’s really essential that you and your partner have a schedule for when you’ll talk. We’re fortunate that we have so many different modes of contact these days, but texting is not enough to keep a long-distance relationship going. To maintain a strong relationship, you need something like Skype, as often as you can!”

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Why do I bring this up? I bring it up because my Twin Flame Twinklebear and I are in a long distance Twin Flame relationship, as I am in New York and my Baby is in England. It is certainly true that we have a greater sense of intimacy because as Twin Flames, we do share meaningful and feelings with greater urgency because have this vast ocean between us.

My relationship with Twinklebear, is the most open and honest I have ever had. This greater sense of intimacy for us, shrinks that physical distance and at special moments—seems to make it evaporate as if by magic. When we are not communicating by text or video calling, I miss Twinkebear terribly.

As invaluable as texting is for us long distance Twin Flames couple, it is video calling that allows us to reinforce the strength our Twin Flame connection, as we are able to see each other and hear each other’s voice. During video calling, the phenomenon of “Twin Flame knowing,” that special recognition of each other from past lives peculiar to Twin Souls—occurs.

Latent memories are ignited during video calling, as are recollection of recurrent dreams of the other before meeting in the present lifetime. It is during video calling, that spontaneous tears of joy sprout. It is during video calling, that meaningful communication occurs. It is during video calling with my Twin Flame, that the emotions of joy and love are at their highest—as if my Twinklebear was right next to me in the same room.

The most difficult part of loving Twinklebear long distance style, is the frustration I feel from missing her. For us as a long distance couple, the frustration from missing each other, is exponentially worse than for a couple living together when we are not video calling. I tend to worry about my Baby!

It is during the times when Twinklebear and I are not video calling when I feel the most stressed and frustrated. The need for her, this sheer wanting of her is indescribably painful. I believe that this is a common phenomenon in long distance relationships, made far worse emotionally when the couple in question are Twin Flames

It is during these episodes of gut-wrenching longing and need, that there is an insecurity that creeps in—that I call the “human element” of the Twin Flame relationship. While Twins are cognizant of being Twin Souls, which are by nature profoundly spiritual and eternal, there is the inevitable mortal sense and fear of time passing by too quickly for the Twins, as they are separated by distance. For true Twin Souls, this induces a great melancholy that is bittersweet.

The Twin Flame relationship transcends time and space, as the Twins were split from one single Soul at the beginning of time. They are meant to be ultimately reunited, but that doesn’t mitigate the very human sorrow when the couple is a long distance couple, reincarnated into a very mortal and vulnerable lifetime.

I said before that Twin Flames are subjected to the same challenges and frustration as non-Twin Flame long distance relationships. This is not exactly accurate. It is worse for Twin Souls, as the love and need for the other is so much greater for Twin Souls than in “regular” relationships. For Twin Flames, there is an organic soul matter connection that might as well be visible and palpable, no matter what the distance is between the Twins.

That is the greatness and sadness of the Twin Flame relationship. The highs are so very much higher, and the lows are accordingly so. The Twin Flame relationship is a roller coaster that reaches the outer limits of Heaven, while plummeting to the surface just above gutted hell. A “normal” relationship, is a children’s merry-go-round ride, compared to the exhilarating and downright scary roller coaster ride of the Twin Flame couple. People with weakness of knees and spirit need not apply!

Technology is a great spiritual boon to Twin Souls, as technology has provided the best and most perfect avenue for Twins in a long distance relationshp to be with each other—video calling. When Twinklebear and I as a long distance Twin Flame couple video call, we are home. I am “home” whenever I see and hear my Twinklebear.

This brings back a fond and funny memory of early 2016, when Twinklebear and I were texting during the process of ” Twin Flame recognition” and re-falling crazy-in-love, as only Twin Flames can. She kept saying to me….

Why don’t you get a tablet? That way we can video call. We can actually see and hear each other!”

At that point, we had telephone calls with each other, which were amazing. I was skeptical about the tablet, because I am in many ways, a tech-ignorant Luddite. Additionally, I am inordinately stubborn (watch it, Twinklebear! Ha! You!), so I resisted the idea of getting a tablet.

But oh my God, after I secretly bought a tablet and surprised Twinklebear with it, the world changed for us. Long distance Twin Flame couples, through the wonder of modern technology, can and do maintain their relationships wonderfully. That takes the edge off of human element that causes so much melancholy. I love you Twinklebear, so much, too much.

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“MEMOIR: THE STORY OF TWO CAKES”

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This is the story of two cakes. These were the “Alpha Dog Biscuit Cake” and the “Free Spirit Peaches and Cream Cake.” For the sake of expediency, these shall be called “Dog” and “Peaches” from now on.

In this story of two cakes, Dog and Peaches loved each other very much, too much to the point that they could never be away from each other on the table, no matter how different their ingredients.

When they first met, they had disputes because their recipe make up was slightly different. So Dog threatened to move to the other side of the table from Peaches, so painful and frustrating were their minor differences. Dog foolishly tried moving to the other side of the table, three separate times!

But the Dog Cake discovered a simple truth when he was on the other side of the table from the Peaches Cake. He could not stand to be away from his beloved Peaches, even overnight! Every time, Dog had to drag his sorry batter across the table to beg forgiveness from Peaches! And she did forgive him, and they cried in each others’ cream filling! They said….

“I cannot be without you! No matter how great the pain! I felt gutted without you! I love and need you too much!”

Things smoothed out over the next three years as each cake tried to accommodate each other’s taste, tastes that were slightly different due to the ingredients that went into their making. Tastes that were inexorably baked into them by the time they met. There were occasional times when one or the other said to the other, “Blecchh…I don’t like this taste of this part of you.”

However, it eventually dawned them—although very slowly and gradually—that these occasional tastes that each other found objectionable in the other, had been baked into them thoroughly by the time they met.

And so, in this story of two cakes, Dog and Peaches accepted the way the other was based on the ingredients that were used in their baking. They came to realize, that each of them was already baked by the time they met, and they decided to respect those differences in ingredients, even if they said “Blecch..” once in a great while.

Because they loved each other so much and needed each other so much.

That is why they then stayed on the same side of the table, Forever and a day.

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“MEMOIR: EBB & FLOW OF THE TWIN FLAME JOURNEY”

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The Twin Flame journey is a living babbling brook where the counteracting forces of the Twins seek homeostasis.

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FROM THE MERRIAM-WEBSTER DICTIONARY

homeostasis: a stable state of equilibrium between the different but interdependent elements of an organism

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In our Twin Flame journey, Twinklebear and I are “the different but interdependent elements of an organism” referred to in the definition. We are also like the counteracting forces of the living babbling brook, who seek to maintain that balance, that homeostasis that represents us as the two halves of the same single soul divided at the beginning of time, into two separate people.

We two together, are that “organism” that demands that homeostasis and harmony be kept up within our Twin Flame Pod. The means at our disposal for maintaining homeostasis and harmony are unconditional love and support of the other, employed individually, contingent on the relative needs of each at any given point in time. Changes and events in the life of each Twin are the “ebb and flow” that dictates the “relative needs” of either Twin.

When I speak of the “ebb” it means as you would deduce, a “receding” of sorts. In the context of the Twin Flame relationship, it is the receding of good fortune in one Twin’s existence, which then leads to the “flow” which represents the unconditional love and support from the affected Twin’s partner.

Twinklebear and I both had this ebbing, but Twinklebear’s occurred first last year. Both of our ebbs were related to health issues. In 2017, Twinklebear developed cancer, which thankfully was successfully treated. My health issue happened this year, when I suffered a fractured hip, which was also treated successfully.

Both ebbs resulted in fear and emotional despondency, and I can say unequivocally, if it hadn’t been for the total love and emotional support of the other, neither of us would have fared as well as we did. Each of us was at a low point emotionally and physically when our individual ebbing took place, and the response of the other was life nurturing in every way you can think of.

We need each other like we need air and water.

I am still in the recovery stages of my recovery, and if it were not for the total love and support of my Twinklebear, I don’t think I could get through it. I need and love her so much! She is my eternal wife and eternal Twin Flame. She means everything to me

Twin Flames have an unconditionally enduring commitment to each other. These “ebbs” in Twin Flames’ lives, demand—and get—from the other Twin, unquestioned emotional support throughout the entire recovery period of each ebb. That could take months in some cases. But that epitomizes the Twin Flame journey. Steadfast, enduring and eternal.

In the babbling brook of our Twin Flame journey, Twinklebear and I have experienced the ebbs and the counteractions, which preserves homeostasis. We will always need each other, and love each other in our babbling brook.

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“MEMOIR: ALPHA”

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BRITISH WAR BRIDE DURING WORLD WAR 2

“When I met my American husband I didn’t even like him, or so I thought. He was so different from English boys who were more reserved. My husband was brash and outspoken, and I discovered that it was these qualities that I found so fascinating about him, and loved about him.”

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I heard this quote when I was watching a television documentary about World War 2. At a point when the US entered the war, American pilots and their air force planes were deployed to England, as a base to attack Germany from. One segment of the documentary discussed how American soldiers and English women met and married, and this one particular interview with that English girl really struck a chord in me.

It should not be surprising that this interview hit home with me, as the analogy of that Yank and his Brit bride, loosely fits my Twinklebear (my Twin Flame love) and I. Now obviously, this is 2018 and we aren’t involved in a world war. However—Twinklebear is English and I am American.

Therein lies part of the mutual attraction between us.

A clarification: Twinklebear and I are reincarnated spouses from past lives, past lives which took place in distant lands. Due to recurrent dreams and latent memories of and from those past lives, we know that at least one past life took place in Asia, probably Mongolia.

I mentioned this to reinforce the fact that Twinklebear and I would have found instant intense attraction to each other (as we did when we met—“reunited” really—in 2015) based on us “knowing” the other. I truly “know” her and had known her immediately, over three years ago.

But our spiritual “soul side” aside, from a purely human perspective in this lifetime, there is an undeniable mutual attraction based on the same “exoticness” that that English war bride and her Yank husband felt. Twinklebear often find ourselves saying….

“I love your Americanness!”
“I love your Britishness!”

ROMANCE ALERT! ROMANCE ALERT! ROMANCE ALERT!

Please turn back now, if you find saccharine romanticism too sugary sweet for your mental palate! You have been warned! Continue at your own peril!

I will admit that I find Twinklebear sensuously exotic because she is English. I find her to be so sexy! Of course, much of this is because she as a woman is so feminine and sexy, regardless of what nationality she is. But that element of her being British, making her perhaps 25 degrees off of my “cultural axis” as a Yank—is definitely a factor in why I find Twinklebear so attractive.

That 25 degrees of cultural difference, is like a heady spice that intoxicates and beguiles me.

Her voice! With that accent! Wow! Sometimes just listening to her talk arouses me. Oh my God!

One thing I have noticed about our Twin Flame relationship, is how it is so primal. The Twin Flame phenomenon reduces the man and woman down to their most primal and primitive essences—in a special way that ordinary relationships do not. There is a “stripping away” of pretenses and political correctness that occurs with Twin Flames. This stripping down to the very base, is necessary as it renders Twin Flames incredibly close and honest.

This is no more in display than the way Twinklebear as my Twin Flame, has exposed and heightened my alpha male tendencies. Now, I admit without apology or explanation, that I have been an alpha male all of my life. I have always sought to best others in all that I do, and to dominate in those endeavors. But my Twin Flame has ignited the sheer animalness in me as an alpha male, sometimes to a maddening degree. Maddening, because as an alpha, I cannot rest easy until I achieve what I want.

What I wanted from the very first day I met Twinklebear, was her.

One of her qualities that I have treasured so much, is her Britishness. Lord, I love that about her. Twinklebear did in fact, make mention about how brash and outspoken I am when we first met, because I am an American. Now you can appreciate why that interview of the British war bride during World War 2 resonated so much with me.

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Forever and a day
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